This week has been crazy

Well with 2 trips to Labor and Delivery, I should realize that I'm not super woman. Some slight complications have came up, which may prevent me from being able to have Lil D the way I want to. I'm not too excited about the thoughts of a C-section or having to have our first child without hubby, but I will do whatever it takes to make sure this baby comes into the world. I've also realized that I have amazing people in my life. Several of my friends here in VA have been doing wonderful things for me. Such as Kali and Jen who tricked me so that all of my laundry would get finished and even my dishes would get done. Being in as much pain as I've been in has not helped in the housekeeping area. Now we are going to start working on my lil man's room so that if and when he comes home before daddy he will have a place to sleep. I'm so grateful for the people in my life. I have a hard time asking for help, it makes me feel weak and small but there are times when you need help and people can see that and just do it. I just hope that I will be able to repay the kindness that they have shown me. I'm so grateful for the people in my life.

another month down

Wow, it's August. It's hard to believe that he has been gone for 4 months now. But it's wonderful meaning he will almost be home soon. August also means that it's my birthday, something that can be a wonderful thing, but this year is somewhat bittersweet. I miss home alot, I miss Jake a lot, but I'm grateful for the friends that I have made in the short amount of time that I have been here in VA. I don't have any big plans for my bday, just to get through it lol. Next year I can worry about making big plans, since next year will be a milestone. BOO.

And with it being August also mean another month closer to welcoming our son into this world. I'm getting more and more excited by the day, but also more anxious. I've not been well for the last few weeks, fighting off infections and such, so hopefully I'll be feeling better soon. I worry about the effects that it will have on the baby, hopefully none, but still worries me nonetheless. I'm not to fond of having him camp out in my ribs, which just started a few days ago, but as long as he is healthy and happy I'll be fine with it. It's exciting being able to feel him move around and kick. It's also exciting to be able to feel around on my belly and try to figure out if that a arm or a butt or a leg or a head. While I've not had the best time of this pregnancy, there are many things I will always cherish. I just wish that I could share them with my husband in person and not through email, which seems so cold to me. But deployments/separations are apart of this life. We've dealt with being apart before, spending the whole first year of our marriage apart, but that doesn't mean it gets any easier. And now with the anticipation of our baby coming into our lives, it makes this separation all the more difficult. Well back to my preparing/cleaning/nesting/craziness or whatnot of cleaning the house and washing his baby stuff.